I am not the type of person who is eloquent and efficient.
People may like to be around those who are kind and say such nice things as "Let's handle difficulties together." However, I am not that type of person, so people may find me difficult to be around. My mother has always told me, "I don't understand you."
I am not good at looking after others and do not like to be told how I should handle things. I am not overly serious or particularly well-organized. I am lazy and hate to deal with bothersome matters. I am very self-centered.
In addition, I consider myself as being a lone wolf, which is a risky personality to have because lone wolves tend to make mistakes that lead to going to hell. This is because lone wolves do not listen to others. Lone wolves need to be convinced by themselves. Unless they are self-convinced, they may seem like they are listening, but they are not. They are just playing along.
However, I believe being a long wolf worked to my advantage in pursuing this study of the heart.
I believe being a lone wolf, which may seem like a disadvantage, worked to my advantage because I always purely thought, "I want to learn about the truth to this world."
I got nothing in particular going on for me. But one thing I can call my strength is the fact that I kept pursuing my wish to learn about the truth to this world.
I am convinced that I would not have allowed myself to pass away without learning about the truth to this world, which I know is what guided someone leading a mediocre life like myself toward making the turn of consciousness.
I also believe my wish to learn about the truth to this world helped me lead a normal life without getting into trouble with others despite being very self-centered.
In fact, I always feel that the flow of consciousness and my true self allow me to lead my life the way I want to, which feeling always makes me happy.
Although I am not the type of person who has such a great ambition as to devote herself to the good of the world, my company, or my family, I know for sure that I am investing my energy in reflecting on the path that led me to where I am today and on my own future.
In addition, although I am a coward and a wimp, I do have my own way of thinking, or what may be called my own principles or philosophy. So I am sure I will not be influenced by others.
I always wanted to choose what is right for me and live my own choices. Of course, I am the type of person who will deal with the consequences of her choices. I am the type of person who needs to be convinced by herself and knows that only she can resolve her own issues. I believe I came to strongly believe in what I just described over the course of my past lifetimes.
I am extremely happy now, knowing that my principles and philosophy finally paid off this lifetime by guiding me toward what I am convinced is the truth.
Mr. Tomekichi Taike taught us the truth. I am extremely grateful to Mr. Tomekichi Taike for helping me learn about the truth to this world. Without meeting Mr. Tomekichi Taike, there would have not been a bright future for any of us.
I believe I understand with my heart what Mr. Tomekichi Taike taught us. I can say that I am convinced that I feel that we are all one in the world of consciousness.
The feeling that "we are all one in the world of consciousness," which I am feeling, is not an ambiguous one but a realistic one.
I am convinced that we will meet again in 250 years from now and that the plan of the flow of consciousness will be implemented. I am also convinced that, while meeting Mr. Tomekichi Taike this lifetime made me extremely happy, I will be incomparably happier when we reunite in our future lifetime.
That is the relationship between me and Mr. Tomekichi Taike. I do not see Mr. Tomekichi Taike as a teacher, nor do I see him as a role model. I believe seeing Mr. Tomekichi Taike as a teacher or role model would be presumptuous. To me, Mr. Tomekichi Taike is more than just a teacher and a role model.
I am extremely happy that I met Mr. Tomekichi Taike. Meeting him was a once-in-all-past-lifetime opportunity. Mr. Tomekichi Taike introduced me straightforwardly to the answer to the question I had always been asking myself. Mr. Tomekichi Taike had a great impact on my world of consciousness.
Meeting Mr. Tomekichi Taike awakened my true self. I am convinced that I am now proceeding along the path toward establishing myself as an independent practitioner of this study of the heart. Although the life I currently lead may be a mediocre one, I am full of happiness because I know I am proceeding along that path one step at a time.
I am also convinced that the happiness I am feeling right now will keep becoming greater.
I look forward to my days in my future lifetime in 250 to 300 years from now.
All I need to do now is learn more about my true self, awaken to the love of my true self, and send my true self the energy that says, "We are all one existing within love."
I am happy that I can state I will keep on proceeding along that path that I believe in, turning my thoughts toward the future when many consciousnesses will be responding to our calling.