The state of my heart in my future lifetime 250 years from now is as follows: The darkness of my heart will be activated by the very fact that I come to have a physical body again; however, the darkness of my heart will not grow any larger than it is now.
My future self will realize the truth faster than my current self because it has pursued the study of the heart this lifetime. I know pursuing the study of the heart this lifetime will help my future self to realize the truth as quickly as possible.
I realized the truth as quickly as possible this lifetime just as I had planned before being born.
Looking back now, I am convinced that I had everything I needed in order to pursue the truth.
One of them was the timing at which I came to pursue the study of the heart. This was an extremely important point. I did not come late; nor did I come early.
After coming to pursue the study of the heart, I came to establish myself as an independent practitioner through trial and error, and consequently, now there is nothing that could prevent me from continuing to pursue the study as an independent practitioner.
Now I lead my life slowly and quietly with joy and happiness, thinking about how the days of my future self will be 250 years from now.
I know there is nothing more happier than spending one's time like I do.
I no longer spend my time and energy on expressing myself because I know doing so would prevent me from feeling the true world.
I feel I do not have any time to waste on expressing myself.
A promise I made with my true self is that I will continue to communicate with my true self with the aim of broadening the pure world inside me.
I will never betray myself again because I came to feel my kindness and warmth spread throughout me.
I am flowing along with the flow of consciousness. I feel my true self always sending me fresh air, and while I do, I feel lucky to be able to exist with my true self.
Compared to the world that I feel, the physical world and everything going on in it does not matter a bit. Therefore, although I do exist in the physical world as well, nothing that happens in the physical world matters much to me. This is because I now know that everything in the physical world will one day be reduced to dust. Everything in the physical world will not last for eternity. That is why I will never allow myself to be betrayed by it again. In addition, because I know that nothing in the physical world matters as much as the non-physical world, no matter what kind of thoughts cross my mind, I will not be influenced by them. I may swing side to side; however, I will eventually absorb such swinging and be able to say, "Thank you. That made me happy," welcoming every little thing going on in the physical world.
On the other hand, I am aware of a side of me that tries to bargain a better deal, weighing loss and gain. Such a side does appear from time to time, but as soon as it does, it disappears again. So a foolish side of me still does exist; however, now I have come to accept such side of me as well.
I know I had foolishly been making efforts to lead the best life possible. However, I am done with making such efforts because my past lifetimes have taught me that one falls deeper into hell, the more efforts of such sort he/she makes.
I believe the world of my heart has now come to understand the following statements as being true: 1) the fear and pain of a bottomless hell existed to help us free ourselves from such fear and pain; 2) what was causing us suffering was not the bottomless hell; and 3) we suffer as a result of falling into the bottomless hell by ourselves, and that was what I had done to myself in my past lifetimes.
The physical world is one where people differentiate themselves from others. We are able to reflect on our filthy hearts because we are differently intelligent, wealthy, brought up, and beautiful or ugly. I believe my current self has acquired the eyes needed to reflect on my heart from such perspectives.
Of course, when I reborn 250 years from now, I will suffer for some time in the physical world due to myself focusing on the differences between myself and others. That is because the seed of such pain still exists inside me. However, as I have said above, my seeds of pain will no longer grow any larger. My future eyes that will again tend to see things in the wrong way will from some point change dramatically. After experiencing such dramatic change, I will continue on with my life without making mistakes. This is what making the turn of consciousness has enabled me to be sure of, by which I am honestly amazed.
The plan of the flow of consciousness was that we prepare ourselves our current lifetimes to pursue the study of the heart, and the plan after 250 years from now is that we put what we learned this lifetime to practice.
The plan of the flow of consciousness must not be ruined. The plan requires making the turn of consciousness, because it is the plan of the flow of consciousness. I exist now for the single reason of keeping the promise I made between me and my true self. I faithfully promised my true self that we will return to love, turning our thoughts to the flow of consciousness.